Currently Playing Futures By Jimmy Eat World see related

lately i've felt overwhelmed.  it's not really a bad feeling, just the realization that there is so much out there that i don't know about disabilities and teaching in general.  i want to learn it all... now.  i like to be good at things, and i used to be pretty cocky about working with kids, but i don't know the slightest thing that there is to know about teaching itself.  how am i supposed to take over as president of the state cec (council for exceptional children, the professional org. for special ed. teachers) in january?  i like to go into things confident, knowing i can handle whatever is thrown at me, but at this point i'm not confident at all.  so far i'm doing my best to not let it stress me out.  i'm making it a point to try to cheer folks up and lift their spirits in the cohort.  i've been a jerk and a know-it-all too long.  i've noticed the more i try to make others happy, the happier i am.  i think that's in the Bible somewhere...

had my second date with katie last night.  (yes, another girl named katie.   yes, another special ed major.  this one's in milledgeville though.  she's in the senior cohort.)  it was a lot of fun and laid back.  i cooked dinner, and we played with blue and watched a movie.  no pressure, just getting to know each other.  in true teacher fashion, she went home at about 10:30 because it was past both of our bedtimes.  

i've never seen the oc, but it's got a killer soundtrack... and the killers are on it.  i so didn't mean to do that.  i have such a way with words.